Where I learnt that you can get hit repeatedly in the face by branches when travelling in an open topped bus and admiring the view!
So I had insomnia, need to get a new job, new place to live and eventually meet the man of my dreams once those two things are sorted. But for today fuck it! The weather forecast is good and I’m here:
“Even though my behaviour has been horrible you have taught me, allowed me to get out of my shell and feel more confident in myself and shown me my passion for psychology and politics. You have honestly been a big impact in my life… You are more than a teacher, you’re a role model, an inspiration and an extraordinary human being”.
This is an excerpt from a card from one of my year 9 Psychology students who I had a few run ins over the year. I wasn’t expecting a message of this nature from her at at all but she starts the card off by thanking me for always believing in her. It’s funny who we make an impact on and how.
I believe that being a teacher is a really important job, and I was the best teacher I could be under challenging circumstances. But that’s not quite good enough for me or for the children I work with. So its not looking likely I’ll be teaching in a school come September but for the last 3 years I’ve given it a good shot.
Over the last week I’ve had a picnic with my favourite class, been sent several lovely messages, and students have popped by my office to say goodbye and give me lots of chocolate. AND my lovely colleagues splashed out and got me two fantastic books and a beautiful pair of earrings. So it’s a bitter sweet ending and I hope my next step will make me happier, more fulfilled and the best me I can be, especially if I am working with young people.
I feel like this is end of a chapter in my life, it wasn’t an easy decision to decide to leave but I am putting my happiness at the top of my life agenda. That includes letting go of people and circumstances that don’t make me happy. I don’t know what my next job will be or where I will be living in a few months which will be challenging for me. I hope by October that my life is more settled and I have found my way to more love, a new flat and a job that makes me fulfilled and happy. Wish me luck!