So happy right now! πŸ€—

So I just got this message all the way from Kentucky! Super excited that my book is going to be read by more women, and that my work is going to reach people in another country! πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—πŸ€—

I’ve had some challenges over the last week but this is a well needed and very welcome boost.

In other writing news, I have now completed two versions of my short story on survival ‘That Gleaming Moment- Notes on Survival’. In two weeks I will be submitting them to the Bridport international writers prize and The Guardian BAME writers competition. 🀞🏾🀞🏾🀞🏾🀞🏾


3 weeks into my Cambodian adventure

So much has happened since I have been here.

I’ve spent a week training in the capital city Phnom Penh.

I then spent another week in Cambodia’s second largest city Battambong, where we were based whilst we visited the village community placements in Banan and Kroas Kala.

I’ve discovered the joys of new friendship, avocado smoothies and Cambodian food in general. It’s 5am here and there is music being played, I think to do with a wedding?

I’m now in my placement in Banan and I’m really proud of the following :

  1. Independently going to the market and getting breakfast
  2. Using an outside loo and shower
  3. Not panicking too much as we sped around on a motorbike
  4. Putting up my mosquito net in my new room.
  5. Still remembering how to ride a bike.

My volunteers both Khmer and UK are here and super lovely folk. Project training for them starts tomorrow.

Well one of my lovelies has managed to get a nip on the leg by an over friendly dog so it’s off to the hospital for us.

Got my first Amazon book review!

Really heart warming to wake up and read this review on Amazon. πŸ’“

If you have read and loved ‘All The Things I Learnt From You’ please support me by:

a) writing a short review on Amazon.

b) spreading the word to your friends via social media

c) getting the book read at your book club. I am happy to talk/perform.

Love from Cambodia,

Michelle xx

Cambodia day 1

After an epic 14 hour journey, we are here safe and sound. We have already done some sightseeing, seeing the Royal palace and the highlight for me was seeing the Mekong river. We are travelling around with our Cambodian team leader counterparts who are all very lovely and helpful.

It’s very hot and I’m pretty knackered so looking forward to a shower and an early night.

Trying to lean into loss & change

In the next 10 days three key things in my life will happen:

1. I will launch my book ‘All The Things I Learnt From You’ on the 22nd March.

2. I will attend a training weekend for my my up coming role in Cambodia with VSO .

3. I will move back to my mother’s house and back into my teenage room which my mother is generously giving me.

It seems that loss comes in more than one way, as does large change. By moving out I have been given Β£1000s of fees to pay. Only yesterday BT told me I would need to pay Β£358 to be released from my contract because I did not tell them by last Friday. The week before that the estate agent told me that I would need to pay Β£725 in re-letting fees to move out. This not including the rent I have paid on an empty bedroom for two months. Nor the bills or money spent on the basics a home needs like knives and forks! I need to raise Β£650 for my Cambodia placement or there is the risk I cant go. So I need to spend money on my events, money I dont really have to make sure this dream happens. Money is flowing out of my bank account, leaving me feeling unstable and insecure.

I passionately wanted for change to come. I wanted a new flat, a new boyfriend and a new job. I wanted to replace each important thing I lost in 2017. For 2018 to be better than 2017. In some respects it is.

I got a new job but it’s not right, so now is a good time to move on. I have got some great organisations on my CV that I have worked with and learnt new skills. I am just about to interview for a summer job which will give me some financial stability and new skills if I get it.

I got a new flat but being unable to financially support living here solo, it’s time to leave here as well. I have learnt how to make a empty flat a home and have at times been more comfortable living alone. Moving to a new place made me feel I truly had a new beginning and more able to leave the past behind.

As for love. Well dating will have to wait. For now. The love of my life is out there somewhere. I hope!

I wanted change and I am getting it. Sometimes I feel I am adrift, that every time I try to settle, the sand shifts. It’s not a nice feeling. So in 10 days time, things will have changed again. And I am hoping that I can lean into this change and not be broken further by it.

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